Day 4

What do you do when you don't feel like blogging? I just received some personal bad news, earlier today, I heard a confession, before that some news about an imprisoned friend's crimes, I discussed death with someone and now, I feel bad. I have that feeling in my stomach that reminds me, all is not well in the world in which I live. I am tempted to worry and fuss and fume and blog about.

I guess I should have blogged this morning, because for me, most mornings just don't seem as bad as the end of a day.

The funny thing about that is, this morning, all the stuff I heard later in the day was just as true then as it is now, only I didn't know about it then. I could have waxed eloquent about some topic, not knowing or caring about what I was going to learn later in the day.

I know God knew about it and evidently He handles things a whole lot better than I do because all the stuff I now know, even though God knew about it before me, didn't cause Him to whine about it to me. It seems I am the one who excels at whinning.

The next question I ask myself is: "Do I really want people to know that I am having a bad day?" What if I want to keep that fact a secret? Well, there's really no reason to be too worried about that since I have only two followers and I am pretty sure that if they were to talk with me they would know it isn't a good day for me - I am a little too open about I how I feel.

So, what should I do? Continue whinning or . . . wait - isn't there something in the Scripture - let me think - "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." I Peter 5:7 (NIV) (Caps mine) I wonder if the word - "cast" is used, by the fisherman Peter, like throwing the fishing net out to sea - give it a toss - the whole messy net worth of junk.

Sometimes I wonder, can I cast my anxiety on the Lord when a portion of it is stuff that is really my mess - bad decisions, wrong thinking, erroneous actions, can I really cast that stuff to Lord - shouldn't I have known better, why didn't I forsee these problems, I wonder if my decision will keep things from working out for good. But, there doesn't seem to be any boundaries on that which causes my anxiety. We are encouraged to cast it on Him. Thinking about that makes me feel better. God can handle all that stuff - very easily - and in ways that I can not always anticipate. He has the resources necessary to meet my needs. He is wise and knows what is best. He has all power and all authority at His disposal. Why am I still blogging, when I should be casting.

So, here it is God, the whole mess. I am casting it on You, as You commanded. I am going to believe You can handle it, that You are able, and that whatever comes from all this, You are working all things together for good - because I love You and am called according to Your purpose.

Oh, and my stomach feels better too. Thanks!